We have developed this insight that nothing could go wrong, but until reality checks itself, we have only been observing all the wrongs and never committing to doing what’s right.
I remember the nights when he whispered to me his affection through constellations bound by fate. How he would poison his kisses and give me a kind of love that was tainted with factors of misleading emotions, we were a disaster that was planned to happen. That I was a star in the sky, and he pretended to be the moon, yet our love was only something of a kind of fantasy - a spec of dust in the sky.
I was always an independent person. I hate relying on people because I would rather not rest on shoulders if I cannot bear the weight on my own. I can’t stand people who give themselves to others, especially when they lose themselves in things that lose the connection of communication and understanding. I still have a lot of getting used to, but honestly, I can do things on my own. I hate when people treat me like I am helpless. Just stop. Let me be me.
I’m having everyone who enjoyed my music throughout high school sign my guitar tomorrow. I’ve had my trusty guitar since freshman year when my father gave it to me. Of course, I’ll probably only allow signatures because my friends dominated each page of my yearbook individually nobody else had much room to sign T___T LOL.
Should be awesome. Bought metallic sharpies and all. So excited!
I have never felt more at peace in my life. There are many times where I have said the same words in different times of my life, but this time - this is what I have always yearned in my heart. I have never felt more complete and happy. To truly find genuineness and know that it will never leave because my soul is intertwined with yours for years to come. I just appreciate everything that has happened in the past years, whether they have been good or bad because they have all led to this moment, here and now: with you.